I feel like I am on a roller coaster.  I went from have a series of REALLY bad days, to now having some pretty good days.  I was actually able to talk about Ian with a coworker  without  breaking down.  It was strange, talking about him actually made me feel better.  It was a relief to have someone WANT to hear about him.  She wasn't being nosey though, she said that her sister had a full-term loss so she knows the pain that comes with it.  She never once made me feel like my baby wasn't as important as her sister's because her niece was full-term.  She acknowledged Ian for the child that he is.  It felt good to hear it.  I know I don't need others to tell me that he matters but when they do, its a breath of fresh air!  No one wants to hear that their baby was insignificant......so to hear someone call him by his name, it made my day.