So I'm having trouble getting motivated to finish up my care packages....I'm not sure why though.  Maybe its the fear of people thinking that they're silly....or maybe its just because like everything else it's just another reminder that Ian really is gone...  But HOPEFULLY I will get them finished and delivered this week.  James is off on Mon-Tues and then again Fri-Sun, so that gives us 3 possible days.  I have almost finished my "resource brochure" I found a perfect poem to put on the back (which I will include at the end of the post)....so I'm nearly there.  James is so supportive and told me to take my time because the more thought that goes into the better they will be.  And I know he's right...but I just feel like I should have been able to have them  delivered by now.  I hope the Dr's office hasn't thought I forgot about them.....  I think I worry too much LOL

I'm finally feeling more and more like my old self lately.  And while that makes me happy, it also makes me feel sad.  I don't want Ian to ever be forgotten!  And I pray that I never forget those few short weeks that I carried my precious baby.  I honestly never thought I would EVER lose a baby!  Losing a baby is something that happened to other people not to me....but I'm sure that is what all moms think.

Speaking of other moms there is an awesome site called Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope. It is a place where moms who have lost babies due to miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant death go to share their story.  The creator is trying to win a grant from the Pepsi refresh program for 25k for she can get materials out to hospitals and help fund support groups all over the country.  The link for that is: http://www.refresheverything.com/facesofloss unfortunately it has to be in the top 15 to get the grant and right now it is currently in the 30's with very few days left. With that being said : GO VOTE! (please)

Ok so here is the poem that will be on the back of the brochures.  I stumbled upon it while looking for quotes about loss and miscarriage and I couldn't believe how well it fit!


You're Not Alone
by: Jeannie Sousa

We've never met yet we share a common bond.
Each of us held a child that now is gone.

You're searching for reasons why?

I wish I could tell you how.
But no one has the answers right now.

Knowing far to well just what you are going through.
It wasn't that long ago
Someone was there for me.
If you need me, I'll be there for you.

You are not alone

Through restless hours of sorrow and pain
As tears keep falling like rain.

How could it be so suddenly?

You're not alone

Lord knows you are not to blame
Feeling life just isn't the same.

You're not alone

Hours turn into days.
Days turn into years.
The memory of your precious baby never disappears.

Behind each storm there's a rainbow.
Beyond the clouds skies are blue.

You ask me, When I say I do.
If you need me, I'll be there for you.

You're not alone

Through restless hours of sorrow and pain
As tears keep falling like rain...

And though your storm has just begun,
Keep watching for the rainbow...

It will come.