Ian's Elephants: Thankfullness day 5

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Today I am thankful for Ian. To some that may sound strange, but I am. I am thankful for the short time that he was with us. I am thankful for the things that I have learned because of him. I am thankful that I can help others in my situation....if Ian hadn't passed I would have been clueless to others needs....granted I wish that God would have shown me their needs in a less painful way..... The truth is, I'm a better person because of Ian. Before he passed I had no clue that SO many women lost their babies due to miscarriage and stillbirths....I also had no clue how painful it could be. Now I am much more sympathetic to women in similar situations. I have also noticed that I am more confident....odd isn't it....but I am. I have always been a push over but now I find myself standing up for myself more. I am learning to speak up and speak out about what I think is important. Ian may have never taken a breath on this Earth but he left his little footprint on it.

What do you see when you look at this picture? Most people will see 2 (beautiful) children with their crazy mom in Target, wearing bunny ears.... but to me this picture is special because although you can't see him physically, Ian is in this picture as well. This was taken about 2 weeks before we found out that Ian had passed.....It might seem silly to some but I will always cherish this picture, because all 3 of my babies are in this picture....alive and thriving. To read our story from the begining

2 comments:

StephanieNovember 29, 2011 at 5:44 PM
I think that anyone who's ever carried and lost a baby would understand why you'd be thankful for Ian. I'm thankful for my little one who barely grew at all, so I can only imagine how much more thankful I would have been if I'd known if my baby was a he or a she, or if I'd given my baby a name. To not feel thankful...well, it would almost feel like wishing it all away.
Ian's elephantsNovember 29, 2011 at 9:29 PM
I am so grateful that my Dr. sent out for pathology....I thought it was standard procedure until one of my friends told me that her Dr. wouldn't do it b/c it was her first miscarriage and it was an early loss. In my opinion doctors should have the courtesy to give women/families the answers they crave. We still have no answers as to why he passed but I was grateful to find out his gender.