I found out why so many couples split up, when tragedy strikes....this weekend hubby and I were both in a funk... he deals with it completely different than I do! I tend to want to talk....he tends to shut down and shut every one out in the process. Grief isn't pretty...It's raw, and snotty (sorry for the visual) and its personal.....If everyone dealt with grief the same way life would be so much easier. James and I spent most of Sat at each other's throats...over petty stuff. And at the end of the day what it all came down to was: we were both overwhelmed, we both were missing Ian terribly, and neither one of us knew how to "make it all better". That night we held each other....and let it out. Never in a million years, did I think that our lives would turn out this way....but I'm so glad that God put James here to help me through it. I'd be lost with out him.
Edited to Add:
I know that it's been a week ....but I FINALLY remembered the name of the hymn(that caused a mini break down in church).....its called:Because He Lives. If you are Baptist (especially Southern Baptist) I'm sure you are familiar with it. But for those who aren't....I'm including the link....the part that left me a blubbering mess is verse 2.Listen to it here....its not the best version but its the best that I could find.