I had a coworker ask me "Are you and James going to have any more babies?" today. I told her "no, unless God gives us another surprise, we're done" and she said "well, that's good! You've got your boy and your girl....couldn't ask for more right".....insert knife to my gut here......Did she forget that I have a baby in Heaven? Or is she just that inconsiderate? If people would just take the time to THINK about what they say, things like this wouldn't happen. I don't want people to walk on eggshells around me...but I would like for the stupid comments to stop. I have 3 children, if you don't want to bring Ian up, that's fine...but please don't act as if he never existed! UGH!!!!
I have fallen into a bit of a funk lately....some days I cry for NO reason at all! I'll be driving down the road...and tears flow....watching the kids play....tears... sitting in carline waiting on Brycen to get out of school...tears....I'm tired of this!!!! I hate living this way!!! This time last year I was getting ready for my first OB appointment....nervous but starting to get excited.... Now he's gone. And I don't know how to handle it.