April Fool's Day

So, last Feb. when we learned that we were pregnant, I told James that we should wait until April Fool's Day to tell people on Facebook (we told close friend's and family of course)....I told him that it would put us just into our 2nd trimester and it would make for a good laugh.  It was to be our joke/non joke.  This was our post:


Well, ...James and I said that 2 kiddos was it for us unless God decided to play a joke on us... God is laughing. Chandler baby #3 is scheduled to arrive Sept 29. 2011 :) :) ...Surprised? Yeah, so were we!

Everyone got a big kick out of it.  But I can't help but feel that the joke was on us.  11 days later he was gone....in reality I'm sure it was less than that.  I felt him move April 4th.....and then James was actually able to feel a little "bump bump" probably 5 days later and then honestly after that I don't remember feeling him move much more.  I remember telling my mom that we had felt the baby move but I hadn't felt him move in a day or so but we both just chalked it up to me being "too early" and not feeling every little move that he made..... 

I still can't believe that it has been almost a year!  Sometimes I feel like it was the longest year in history and then other times, it feels like it has flown by in a big hazy blur.  Lately, the littlest things set me off.  I'm reminded constantly that Ian isn't here...