July 11....progress

I looked at the calender on the 10th and said "awww I almost forgot, tomorrow will be 13 years since my hubby and I started dating"...and then it hit me...it was also another 'month marker' since Ian died....July 11th makes 15 mths since he passed...but I am proud to say that I remembered something happy first :) Not because I am 'forgetting Ian', far from it! I think of Ian everyday...but this was a step forward! My mind didn't automatically go to the woe is me, pity party that I normally go into...I am finally (on most days anyway LOL) at a point that I am happy again. I can talk about Ian the way I would my deceased grandfather...with love and few tears. I'll never be happy that he's not here with me. But I'm happy that he is well taken care of and I will see him one day.